16/06/2009
Today.
Posted in Ramblings tagged college, depression, life, problems, sleeping, social anxiety at 9:27 pm by paintedtigers
Didn’t get to sleep til 9 in the morning, woke up at 2 in the afternoon. Yeah I know how cliche the messed up sleeping thing is. I guess I just need more reason to get up in the morning, college wasn’t enough unfortunately, my future seemed hopeless then… Getting to sleep is a problem because my mind starts racing then, all my paranoia and worries set in. I wish i could just relax my mind, it does this at the most inappropriate times, any social situation pretty much and my mind will start racing, “they don’t like you, you’re not interesting, you have nothing to offer, they’re looking down on you, why bother?” etc. It’s not easy to convice my mind otherwise either… Theres reasons I think like this but I’d rather not get into them today. May do a blog before I go to sleep, to show the things I think about then, they are mostly ridiculous but oh well.
