07/11/2009
Posted in emotions, family, friends, isolation, life, loner, People, Ramblings, social anxiety tagged family, job, leaving home, life, moving out, social anxiety at 2:27 am by paintedtigers
I should really be asleep now, but I haven’t updated this in a while and felt like doing so tonight.
Hmm… Well I did get the job I was talking about in my last post, yay, back to the real world? Been working there for a while now, it’s in a café. I guess it was pretty hard to begin with, all the anxiety issues and whatever… But I’m kind of used to it now, the people who work there are generally nice and I’m trying my hardest to not let it bother me anymore, I just want to work and get paid, I try not to let the social part of it ruin anything for me. Ruined so much already anyway…
I’m mainly working towards saving up to move out, I feel like my time living here with my family here is done. I’ve had enough of just about every member of my family, even when I try to ignore them they still bother and hassle me, I’m so very far beyond tired of the petty arguments there are in this house. The only person I can tolerate lately has been my dad, but even he can be hard to get on with. Hopefully I can move out near the start of next year anyway, a new beginning?
Generally I’ve been okay since I last updated. Which is weird, I would usually have had a really low point in how I felt by now. I dunno. Stuff.
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14/09/2009
Posted in Ramblings tagged depression, hamster, job, life, pet, pets, social anxiety at 11:29 pm by paintedtigers
Adopted an adorable hamster today, he was found wandering the streets and I had been wanting another hammy for a while, so I saw him in the newspaper and thought what better way to get another hamster than to adopt one. He’s very friendly for having been roaming such a dangerous city on his own, I thought the experience might have scared him but he seems happy now, running away on his wheel as fast as his little legs will carry him 
Here’s Truffle less than an hour after being brought home.
On a side note, I may have a job this week, had an interview last week, hopefully I get it. I need something to do other than what I have been doing as of late… Which is not very much at all and is probably why I have been getting so depressed lately. I know I should go see a therapist or something, I just can’t find the courage to do it… Maybe working and having a reason to get up will make me feel better, but I know it’s not going to cure the anxiety. Everything feels like such a task at the moment, I have no energy and all artistic flair has dissapeared. Bragh. I have a new life to take care of, self pity can step aside for now.
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